My therapist suggested that I should not only keep a private journal of my on going saga, but that I should blog about it too. She feels that by blogging I will receive feedback from others in the same situation that I am in and that this feedback will be therapeutic. (Let me just say upfront, even though I write a personal journal I have never blogged before. This is a whole new experience for me, so if I make a mistake or blunder please excuse!)
So..what is my situation? For the past year and a half I have been experiencing a medical nightmare and then some. I feel as if I have seen every physician on the planet and they all want to tell me that there is nothing wrong with me that I am depressed or crazy and want to put me on antidepressants. Which is the reason I now have a therapist. However, my therapist tells me I am not crazy nor depressed, just overwhelmed. So who is right?
I am going with my therapist on this one..I may be insane but I am not crazy. I know my body and I know that there is something wrong and if I do really have to see every doctor on the planet then so be it. I will do what it takes to get someone to listen to me!
My medical situation is this..I have lost a lot of weight well over a hundred pounds..I cannot eat but one food.. I have what feels like a lump in my throat on most days..I have horrible diarrhea and I have seen 4 GI specialists who say there is nothing wrong with me but a little gastritis and stress. I am seeing a new GI doctor soon and hopefully he will figure it out.
I know that I do have stress in my life but I have always had some sort of stress and I am fairly good at dealing with it. I just find it hard to believe that stress is causing all of this, I guess we will see.
I do not know if anyone else will read this but if you do I will be open to your feedback. I just ask that you be blunt but kind. I like honesty but I do not like spite! I will try to update regularly as I find out more. This post is just the beginning and I hope I get something out of it that will help me figure all this out.